The greatest battles we fight in life are the one's inside of ourselves. These battles define who we are and the struggle is to percevere, grow and improve. And thus life, the accumulation and sum of these inner battles, becomes a war. And in war there are casualties. The most significant casualty has been my marriage to Teri. After 20 years we are now divorced. The other major casualty was my relationship with God. Until recently, I was angry at God for allowing my poor eyesight to diminish, dealing with chronic sleep deprivation for almost a year and a half and not providing for my family. In the last two months I have let go the anger I felt towards God and myself and am striving to develop my faith. I have no anger towards Teri. How could I? She is the best person I know.